So I need to get some things off my chest. This is all me and the decisions that I have decided to make for my life. I realize that not everyone feels the same way and that is totally okay. With that being said, I am really done with being surrounded by young (and by young I mean 18-23 year old) people who are either engaged, pregnant, or already have kids. Heck, I’ll be brutally honest with you friends, I’m even sick of constantly reading Facebook/Twitter/Instagram updates about how you are completely in love and in a long term relationship with your significant other.
There was a time in my life where I thought I wanted to be married by the time I was 19 and have kids by age 21. My grandma got married when she was 18 and I am terrified of becoming my parents with my marriage when I’m older. But now I can’t imagine being anything but single for the foreseeable future. I am completely consumed with school, nannying/babysitting, and making a name for myself, by myself. Would it be nice to have someone to run to every time things get crazy? Yes. Do I want to spend all of my time invested in another person right now? No.
Guys, you will only be single for a very small portion of your life. Make the most of it.
So pardon me while I put my love life on hold as I follow my dreams. Truth is, I’m happy. Like, really, really happy for the first time in a long time. And I am dang excited about what the future holds.
So if I temporarily hide you from my Facebook/Twitter/Instagram feed while you are in your engagement/wedding/baby bliss please don’t be offended. I love you, I’m just not at that point in my life and unless something (or someone) drastic happens, I won’t be for the next five years of my life.
You can make the argument that I’m bitter over my past relationship (trust me, I’ve heard it) but I’m not. My focus right now is completely on God and what I need to do for me. I’m not going to change my life for someone at this stage in my life. I’m still figuring out who I am and I don’t need anyone other than close friends, family, and God influencing that. Sorry. If Mr. Right comes along he is going to need a blow horn because I’m in the zone.
I’m happy, and bottom line is that’s what matters. I’m over wasting my time being worried about the fact that I’m not in a committed relationship/engaged/pregnant.
I’ve been braving crazy weather/ Drowning out my cries/ I pull myself together/ I’m focused on the prize…The people all are pointing/ I bet they’d never guess/ That the saint that they’re anointing/ Is frightened of the mess/ But even though I fear it/ I’m playing all my cards/ Baby you are gonna hear it/ When I give them my regards.